Unemployed. Unhappy.

Forgive me as this is sort of a gloomy post but I need somewhere to air out my problems.

As you are aware if you read my blog, I graduated this year - so since May I have been in between the gap of student/unemployed in the big, bad world. 

I completed my degree in Fashion and honestly I am starting to regret it - granted that most graduates in my position also probably feel the same I am started to feel incredibly low. 

I live in a small(ish) town where no fashion jobs will come available - except sales assistants and to be quite honest, I didn't complete 3 years of my life and be 18,000 pound in debt to work on the shop floor that I could have worked BEFORE the degree. Call me snobby/stubborn whatever and before you say 'everyone starts somewhere' the town/shops are too small to have any other jobs than sales assistants or managers and I don't want to be either of them. 

I also specialised in bridal wear - which, with this one I wouldn't mind working in a bridal shop - BUT the town is too small to have more than 2 bridal shops and they are struggling themselves so havent been looking for any additional help for years - they didnt even want me for placement! or they are family run which is an absolute nightmare for people like me. 

The original dream was to own my own business, starting from home eventually building up the funds to have my own studio. This went well for the first year that I was in uni but now Ive finished its decided to take a back seat and only now counts as occasional pocket money for me so i'm considering scrapping that in. I have lost all determination with that and literally just want any job that I can come home from and not have any stress or have to think about it till the next day when Im back in. I am becoming SO bored as well. Ugh its awful. I don't know how people enjoy being unemployed.

I have started applying for ANY jobs now - must be hitting on 15/16 jobs, from all aspects, sales assistants - support workers and not one has got back to me to even give me an interview?! Ive always thought as soon as you get a degree people will want to at least interview you but it seems to be opposite the case here?! My friend even told me that as soon as she took off her degree from her CV she was inundated with job offers and interviews! How awful is that. 

I am in a really sticky situation in my life where I have never felt so lost - and I ALWAYS have a plan for EVERYTHING. 

I suppose everything happens for a reason and I know that but hindsight is a wonderful thing and right now its not that wonderful. 

I am trying so so hard to become successful and dipping my toes into so many different career fields. Ugh. I just want a full time job. 

Sorry for the rant but I am sure many of you graduates also feel the same. I feel so low and so worthless at the moment. 

Anyway I am going to watch Love Island to make myself feel better haha and probably apply to another MILLION jobs!

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